Friday, September 26, 2008

Oh I had such a bad day

I woke up and it was a beautiful day so I decided to go on a nice long bike ride before class. But my front tire was flat. So I went to pump it when I discovered a full on gash in my tire! So annoying! So I decided to go on a run. After about, I don't know, let's say 2 1/2 minutes of running, I tripped over a stick. A STICK! And fell and scraped up my knee and my hand. I was bleeding pretty bad, so I limped on home. Then, my roommate was standing in the kitchen IN HER UNDERWEAR! with her boyfriend, WHO WAS IN HIS UNDERWEAR! And they were eating honey smacks, just standing there in their skivvies with the cereal bowls in their hands just staring at me. And my roommate weighs, oh, i don't know 4 pounds, and she just stood there looking all sexy watching me coyly and her boyfriend finally said, "dude, are you okay?" and I screamed, "no i'm not fucking okay, i think i broke my knee and my hand too!" and then I started crying. And they LAUGHED at me. And I said, "why are you laughing at me?!" and then I couldn't stop crying. It sucked. Anyway. eventually I cleaned myself up and I don't think that I broke my hand and my knee. But I was bleeding and it really hurt. So then I went to class and I was late and my professor totally gave me the eye and then she made a comment to me later about whether or not I was committed. It was so awful. So then I went home and cried again, and then, for the first time since I started doing the hypnosis, I binged. Yup. First time in almost 8 weeks. I binged. And not on anything good. On chickpeas. I binged on chickpeas. I ate 3 cans of chickpeas. My first binge and it's on chickpeas. Oh well. The good things was that I didn't continue the binge. I tuned out and watched tv to relax. But then, I went to the library and of course I see the ex there. He looked at me and turned around and walked the other way. It really sucked. I sat and cried in the Technology & Applied Sciences section.

5 comments:

Marie said...

Since there are no comments yet I just thought I'd say I am sorry your day was so tough.

"Cast your cares upon Him, for He careth for you."

Early said...

Oh dear. That sounds like a really sad day. But that's in the past, today is a new day, embrace it and aim for a happier day. I know it sounds difficult, but you could try not to let things you have no control over upset you. That's my mantra, I will not let anything upset me which is not my fault. Make your own happiness.

By the way, I love your blog! Have a great day today.

Alexia @ The One Last Thing said...

Hugs! What a tough day. Hang in there! It can only go up, right? :-)

Lila said...

Thank you for all your comments! I do feel better today.

A True Heart Girl in Jersey said...

You know what? I bet that slug turned away because he couldn't believe how much weight you've lost since you stopped going out with him! Living well is the best revenge kiddo!