Thursday, September 18, 2008

It's time I start dating

Me and the ex have been apart for awhile now. I got fat while mourning after him. That's fine. I was fat before, but I got bigger because after we broke up I sat around and ate. A lot. I gained about 20 pounds in 6 months. And then I became obsessed with losing it so I could start dating again. And that diet made me gain another 10 pounds.

I can't wait to get thin so I can start to date. I'm lonely. I'm tired of being alone. So I need to just start and date and not wait to lose it. I'd love to date someone and think that it's okay to let him love me when I'm at that size. Can I love myself at this size? I'd like to. My kittens love me. They love my fat too. They knead all over my belly.

3 comments:

Yorke said...

I happened here after reading a comment on Shapely Prose. Not relevant to this post, but I've read some of your others, and you're hilarious, delightful, and adorable. :)

~ Yorke (Your Kindred Serial Dieting Sister!)

Alexia @ The One Last Thing said...

No reason to weight -- I met my husband at my highest weight, so we can say we were together through thick and thin ;-)

Lila said...

Thanks so much for your comments.

Alexia, I'm so sorry to hear about your sister. What a tragedy.